MAHINA HAUKEA
med risk
So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 2, 2009 7:29:15 GMT -5
M [/color] ahina L[/color] okelani H[/color] aukea'cause the girl in my mirror[/color] I S C R Y I N G T O N I G H T[/color]  A N D T H E R E I S N O T H I N G I C A N T E L L H E R[/color] to make her feel alright[/color]
Mahina sat in her room quietly for hours on end, not moving, not really even conscious. But it was beginning to kill her inside. As if she wasn't insane enough to even BE in this place, she had to drive herself to murder by staring blankly at a white wall all day? Yea right. A small quiet hum echoed from her pale slender throat as she quietly headed to the grounds. Probably the only other place she cared to go. The nurses she walked by eyes her suspiciously, but when she stepped into the open air her cheeks flushed a light pink from the pleasure of the open air.
Speaking of pleasure.....no. Mahina kept to herself the entire time, not speaking to anyone else or looking at anyone else. Keeping to herself, alone, serene. For once not angry or upset with anyone or anything. She looked for a secluded place to rest and she managed to find a large tree she crawled under. Leaning against the tree she closed her eyes, taking a feel for the world around her. She lightly ran her hands over the grass, the air smelled fresh and lightly like rain. But the ground wasn't wet, so it was an oncoming rain.
The bark of the tree rubbed against her back roughly and she sighed. She opened her eyes slowly seeing the light blue of the sky, and ignoring her own mind. But not all of her problems could be ignored. Though she loved being alone she couldn't stand it, and she was beginning to itch for attention. Physical and otherwise. She looked around at the other patients and frowned, too shy to approach anyone else. She just hoped to god someone would walk over to her first to save her the pain of making a fool out of herself.
She brought her knees to her chest, wrapping her arms around her chest. Quietly she began to hum again, softly so those who wanted to hear her could if they listened quietly enough, and those who didn't didn't have to. Her knees parted slightly and she closed her eyes, subjecting herself to her own thoughts.
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TAG ! Shou && Akira
OUTFIT ! look at the pic
WORDS! around or over 300
LYRICS ! Girl In the Mirror - Britney Spears *Only guilty by thinking this template is pretty*
NOTES ! none
CREDITS ! PaulaHalliwell from caution 2.0
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 2, 2009 19:39:43 GMT -5
 Oh star, fall down on me[/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] Shou woke up that morning to Akira jumping on their bed. ”Kira-chaaan” The older twin whined, wanting more sleep. He turned over and curled up but was unable to ignore the fact that Akira was still jumping up and down on the bed. ”Akira, stop!” Shou growled, and Akira quickly sat down, biting his lip. ”Sorry” He said softly. ”I just want you to wake up, I’m bored” He leaned over, resting his hands on Shou’s back, kneading the skin gently before lightly kissing his twins neck. ”Want to shower with me?” Akira asked innocently, his breath hot against Shou’s skin. Shou let out a small moan at the thought and gave up on sleep as he turned to face his brother. ”Fine” He replied, softly kissing his twin on the lips before picking him up in his arms and leading his towards the showers.
He was glad that they were still allowed to have make up, or he’d be at a loss of what to do with himself. It was hard to get more when he or his twin ran out, but he took care of that for the both of them, usually having to give one of the nurses a little service for something in return. Since he was in for being a sex addict, they knew he was pretty good at pleasing, but he still didn’t see why he was awarded with this place for liking sex. He shrugged his shoulders and applied make up to his face, accenting his already doll-like features. Shou smiled when Akira asked for help with his, and once they were done, Shou did their hair as well. ”Shou-san, want to dress the same?” Akira asked excitedly. What was the point in being a twin after all, if you couldn’t dress alike? ”Fine” Shou replied, knowing it would make his little brother happy.
The two dressed in a pair of plaid pajama pants with a vibrant pink ribbon around the waist, and black t-shirts. They took each other’s hands once they were ready, and Shou grabbed his secret book that he wrote in. Mostly it was lyrics and poems, never journal entries. He was already forced to do that, he wouldn’t want to do it willingly. He lightly kissed his twin on the lips, and the two headed out to the grounds. As they got outside, Akira ran on ahead to the swings, just swinging straight ahead as he’d learned his lesson before from swinging side to side. He wasn’t stupid enough to try again.
Shou smiled softly at his twin as he watched for a bit, then started to walk to the trees where he would have a place to sit out of the sun that was trying hard to come out, and he would still be able to keep an eye on Akira from where he sat. He was slightly surprised to find a girl already sitting under the trees and stopped dead in his tracks. ”Hello…” He said, his voice somewhat quiet. He took a small step forwards, not sure what to expect from this girl. He’d already been attacked by a patient that he’d said hello to, and he didn’t exactly want it to happen again.
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MAHINA HAUKEA
med risk
So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
Posts: 21
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 2, 2009 21:21:55 GMT -5
M [/color] ahina L[/color] okelani H[/color] aukea'cause the girl in my mirror[/color] I S C R Y I N G T O N I G H T[/color] A N D T H E R E I S N O T H I N G I C A N T E L L H E R[/color] to make her feel alright[/color]
Mahina looked up and saw a boy running at the swings. She watched him for a few moments, then took a good look at him. He was cute, very doll like. She fought the now strong urge she had to approach him, to introduce herself, to talk. She feared herself getting angry, of hurting him. Images ran through her mind one after the other, of hurting him, hitting him, bringing him harm and making him cry. She felt sick suddenly. She covered her head then, quickly resting her head on her knees and wrapping her arms about her head. She hated it, hated herself, for her thoughts.
She was having flashback of her younger years now, the time she pushed her sister out a tree, the time she ripped a chunk from her leg after biting her, when she tried to smother her baby sister, and when she broke her mother's wrist. She was dangerous. But to this place they called her a "medium risk," whatever the hell that was supposed to mean. Sure she could still walk the halls but that didn't mean that the people passing by her didn't really piss her off, that didn't mean she wanted to hurt everyone she met or talked to, every nurse that forced her to finish everything on her plate before she left the cafeteria, all the times she was supervised in the shower.
She hadn't noticed the other boy walk up to her, like looking into a mirrored copy of the boy on the swings. When he spoke to her she jumped slightly and brought her head up, her hair slightly messy now and closing her eyes against the blaring sun. "Hello." She repeated back quietly. She was curious about this boy, and a swelled feeling of relief washed over her as she knew he was talking to her. This meant she wouldn't suffer tonight from eating herself in her own mind. She stretched out her legs in front of her and clasped her hands in her lap. "Your twin is adorable." She commented softly as she looked back over to the blissful boy. Or it seemed that way anyway.
She didn't show any particular emotion besides exhaustion, and a slight look of being frightened badly. She was now into shock therapy for a bit, and it wasn't fun at all. "My name is Mahina." She said and looked back up at him.
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TAG ! Shou && Akira
OUTFIT ! look at the pic
WORDS! around or over 300
LYRICS ! Girl In the Mirror - Britney Spears *Only guilty by thinking this template is pretty*
NOTES ! none
CREDITS ! PaulaHalliwell from caution 2.0
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 2, 2009 22:40:22 GMT -5
Oh star, fall down on me [/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] Shou looked over at Akira who was on the swings, smiling away. Shou smiled a bit at his twin before turning back to the girl beneath the tree. ”Yeah, he is” He replied, his accent laying over the three small words and rolling his eyes a bit as Akira’s laughter carried all the way to where they were. His blue eyes showed tiredness, but on the outside he seemed to be at least somewhat amused by his twin. Mostly though he still looked a little wary of the girl in front of him, still not understanding why he was a high risk. Sure he loved blood, but he wasn’t about to just attack someone for it. He never took someone’s blood unless they gave him permission to, or unless he was ‘playing’ with them. But more or less, Shou was the twin that knew what was going on, while Akira lived with the thought that their parents just didn’t want them anymore for some reason and left them here.
”I’m Shou” The blond said, slowly sitting down so that he could see both Mahina and Akira. ”My twin’s name is Akira” He nodded over in his twin’s direction, who was now running around, as if being chased by someone invisible. Shou shook his head and opened his book in his lap, reading what he’d written down. Everything written was in kanji, so even if a nurse confiscated the journal from him, they wouldn’t understand what he was talking about. Not unless someone on the staff actually spoke or read Japanese, which he doubted. ”Hope cannot reach me.
The wish cannot be granted
But even then I'm still near” He looked back up from his journal, keeping his pen inside to mark the page as he closed it and let his gaze focus on the girl not too far away from him. ”Where are you from, Mahina?” He asked, somewhat curious. He was sure that she could guess where he was from, especially since his accent clearly gave it away, as well as the kanji in his book. ”I’m from Japan myself… From Osaka… Well, near there” He shrugged his shoulders a bit and looked down at the grass, really missing his home for the first time. It was only really just beginning to hit him that his family was not coming back and that this really wasn’t some sort of joke to teach them a lesson. But he still didn’t feel like he’d done anything wrong. Opening his book back up, he wrote down a couple more lines. ” Somewhere this star was smashed up into stardust
Various colours
An Ideal universe?” He closed it again and clutched it to his chest as he looked at Mahina, unable to think of what to say to her. Usually his twin was the one to talk to people, and Shou just joined in if they wanted to play. He liked to be by himself since trusting people had never been his strong point, and to talk to people, he felt he had to trust them. He was trying at least, which was something new.
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MAHINA HAUKEA
med risk
So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 3, 2009 9:47:49 GMT -5
M [/color] ahina L[/color] okelani H[/color] aukea'cause the girl in my mirror[/color] I S C R Y I N G T O N I G H T[/color] A N D T H E R E I S N O T H I N G I C A N T E L L H E R[/color] to make her feel alright[/color]
Mahina smiled as he sat down and leaned back against the tree. The air was nice and clean, not stuffy unlike inside the damned hospital. She looked at him as he spoke, slowly blinking her eyes sleepily. "I like your names." She said and smiled again, in a dreamy fashion. She could feel a small buzz in her fingertips, the ghost feeling of the electricity coursing through her blood. She looked at her hands for a moment, stretching her long pale fingers out on her legs. A flicker of fear flashed in her dark orbs and was gone.
Her own screams echoed on her ears, lost in her thoughts. Her head jerked up and she looked back at Shou, happy for the company to distract her otherwise lost mind. "Japan? Oh it must have been beautiful there." She was preparing herself to argue with the boy, no one seemed to believe she was actually from Hawaii, mainly getting responses along the line of speaking how she didn't have tan skin or that she never spoke the language. She didn't often find reason to though, she didn't have to prove herself to others. She felt the spark of anger well up inside of her but she shoved it down in fear.
"I'm from Hawaii, Honolulu. Then I moved to Hilo, then Kailua, then Waimalu until I was finally sent here." She said softly and glanced up at him. The way she looked at him said everything. Argue with me, I dare you. I'm right and your wrong. She didn't like being told she was wrong often, it didn't seem right to her considering people didn't know anything about her. "You probably don't believe me. I don't have an accent I have pale skin and I never speak the language." She said quietly. She looked back over to Akira and smiled watching him. He seemed so happy, like a small light in the darkness. Watching him made her feel better, and kept her in control of her anger. She didn't want to freak out and possibly ruin the only friendship she had made so far. If you could even consider them friends at this point.
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TAG ! Shou && Akira
OUTFIT ! look at the pic
WORDS! 323 I think
LYRICS ! Girl In the Mirror - Britney Spears *Only guilty by thinking this template is pretty*
NOTES ! none
CREDITS ! PaulaHalliwell from caution 2.0
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 3, 2009 16:57:08 GMT -5
Oh star, fall down on me [/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] ”Thanks” Shou said, smiling fakely as he sat down, positioning himself so that he gave both of them some space. He was not the type to be sitting on top of someone, though Akira did it to him all the time. He noticed the look of fear in her eyes, but showed no reaction to it. He just moved a little bit more away from her, just in case he was making her nervous. He and his twin both had on a bracelet that let everyone know they were high risk. It was blood red and Shou’s was cut in three different spots from trying to take it off, but the nurses had taped it back together. Now it just bugged him, but he’d learned after the third try to give up.
He nodded a bit, playing with the pages in his book. ”Yes, it was” He said, feeling a lump in his throat. He missed his home with the swing set in the back, and the small pool that they set up during the summer. He missed smelling his mother’s cooking in the morning, and the room he and his twin shared. He missed the park near his house, and the beach that was a forty-five minutes walk. He cleared his throat and hid his eyes behind his blond bangs.
Shou raised his eyebrow at her expression and tilted his head slightly, wondering why Mahina looked so pissed off at him. He hadn’t done anything wrong, or so he thought anyway. But then again, he was ‘crazy’ so you never know. He listened as Mahina spoke about where she was from, and then accused him of not believing her. He looked thoughtful for a minute then placed his book on the ground and returned his attention to Mahina. ”I have no right to assume you are or are not lying to me” He said, shrugging his shoulders and smirking a bit. ”After all, I am crazy. Who’s to say my opinion is correct?” He chuckled, leaning against the tree trunk that was behind him. ”Besides, not all people there have an accent”
How Shou knew that wasn’t important, but his back straightened when he saw his twin suddenly fall. Akira had barely started to cry when Shou got up and started to run over. Shou checked for injuries, and kissed where it hurt before he let Akira get up and start running around again. Shou smiled slightly and made his way back to his spot under the tree, leaning against the trunk again. Back home, he would do the same thing, but under the cherry tree in their backyard.
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MAHINA HAUKEA
med risk
So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
Posts: 21
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 3, 2009 17:32:42 GMT -5
M [/color] ahina L[/color] okelani H[/color] aukea'cause the girl in my mirror[/color] I S C R Y I N G T O N I G H T[/color] A N D T H E R E I S N O T H I N G I C A N T E L L H E R[/color] to make her feel alright[/color]
She paused a moment, everything he said to her sinking in and settling. She looked at him as she heard the strain in his voice, she longed to touch him, but thought better of it before she could raise her hand. Her fingers twitched, itching to touch another human, or anything alive. She looked upward and smiled slightly. "Crazy or not it doesn't really matter now does it? I think all any of us really need is a hug and a kiss on the forehead." Her fingers fluttered to touch her lips, tug her ear, grip her purple tank top. "Do they make you take shock therapy?" She asked, her eyes darting to him.
She was getting her ticks again, the small twitches that were involuntary, like electricity flowing through her sending small sparks through her system. Her eyes were attracted to Akira like a magnet as he fell and a small whine escaped her lips as she tensed, as though to stand. Looking at his twin though, he was already there and comforting the boy. Mahina felt stupid, childish. She was jealous. They had each other, and she didn't have a bond like that with anyone. Her knees flew to her chest and she watched the two interact before Shou came back to sit next to her. A hand flew to her forehead, sliding until she was resting against her wrist.
"I'm jealous." She said quietly. "You have someone who loves you as much as you love them." She stretched her legs out again. To others it must have seem as though she was having a mini melt down, severe ticks and the constant movement of her limbs to touch her face, her ears, her neck. But really she couldn't help it, it was the time she spent alone, she no long knew how to act in front of actual people. God I NEED someone. There it was again, that need for physical relations. Her eyes darted around to anyone but the twins, desperately. "How long have you been here?" She needed to talk to someone to keep her cool. She could feel the anger building, rising. "You might want to move a bit farther away, I have Bipolar II which means I'm fighting to control a violent rage for no reason."
She scooted away and sucked in a breath. "Sex and music, the only things that calm me." At this point she was mumbling to herself more than him, what did he care what was wrong with her? She stood up. "I'm sorry it isn't your problem I should leave." She eyed his neck, it would look pretty wrapped in her fingers...squeezing..... She gasped loudly covering her face. "I'm sorry I'm so sorry I'm a wreck! You don't want to know me I may not be high risk but the things they have me on screw me more than before!"
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TAG ! Shou && Akira
OUTFIT ! look at the pic
WORDS! 496
LYRICS ! Girl In the Mirror - Britney Spears *Only guilty by thinking this template is pretty*
NOTES ! none
CREDITS ! PaulaHalliwell from caution 2.0
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 3, 2009 20:23:44 GMT -5
Oh star, fall down on me [/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] Shou bit his lip and looked at the bracelet around his wrist. ”Once, for trying to take this off” He said, holding up his arm to show the bracelet. He shuddered and looked down at the ground. Being abused by staff wasn’t uncommon in a situation like this, and when he wasn’t exactly nice to them, they took that as an excuse to do things like that to him. He looked up at Akira, afraid his little brother could hear their conversation, but he was still happily playing. ”Akira doesn’t know…” He said softly, looking over at Mahina, as if warning her to not say anything to his brother. Akira was still very child-like and he worried easily. He didn’t want his twin more upset than he already was.
He seemed surprised when Mahina said that she was jealous of him. Nobody ever told him that, unless they were talking about screwing his twin. He hugged his legs to his chest and looked at his twin who was now lying in the grass and staring up at the sky. Shou looked back at Mahina questioningly, trying to read her facial expression but she changed it too quickly. ”Three weeks” He replied, thinking about all of the things that he’d been through in just those few weeks. Being taken advantage of, finding a friend with benefits, and almost being put into seclusion multiple times. ”What about you?” He asked, retreating from his thoughts to pay attention to Mahina.
He scoffed at her proclamation. ”You don’t think I’m used to abuse?” Shou asked, raising an eyebrow. Both his twin and himself used to get beaten by their father, and their brother before they’d killed him. He smiled with satisfaction at the thought and crossed his arms. He wasn’t moving anywhere.
”Sex and music?” Shou asked, smirking slightly. Maybe this girl would like him after all. ”I feel the very same” His blue eyes sparkled and he leaned closer when Mahina scooted away. ”Sex is the reason we’re here… Well, one of them” He shrugged his shoulders, his smirk widening. ”And this” He held up his book to show her. ”Is full of lyrics…” He put his book back down, sliding a bit closer to Mahina.
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MAHINA HAUKEA
med risk
So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 3, 2009 20:40:59 GMT -5
M [/color] ahina L[/color] okelani H[/color] aukea'cause the girl in my mirror[/color] I S C R Y I N G T O N I G H T[/color] A N D T H E R E I S N O T H I N G I C A N T E L L H E R[/color] to make her feel alright[/color]
She wouldn't tell anyone he didn't want her to tell. "You poor thing." She said softly. Looking down at him she immediately calmed. He wasn't afraid of her, or worried at all. She blinked dreamily and sunk back down next to him slowly. "You don't hate me..." She said quietly. She looked down at her lap. "3 years. I've been here for 3 years. Not once has anyone but the nurses talked to me. Besides you now." She tilted her head to look at him. "The meds and treatment only get worse, and that's coming from only a medium risk patient." Hesitantly she reached out, touching his bracelet. The simple action gave her pleasure, a sense of being in the world as a person, not just an idea.
She felt the need to embrace him and attach to him, but she knew this wasn't a good idea and she'd be seen as a freak. She smiled dreamily looking over at Akira who was in the grass. He seemed so sweet. She leaned back into the tree, more calm then she was before. The anger had subsided, the excitement building over making a new friend that she could talk to far too high for her to feel anything else. she looked at him with a new perspective. "Your here for sex too? I don't see how it's such a problem." She giggled. It never had made much sense to her, you wake up from a sexy dream, play it out physically, and suddenly your shipped off to an asylum for being "too sexual."
How did people expect others to survive? "Sex is just an outlet, I mean something that feels that good can't be bad for you." Mahina smiled innocently. She tilted her head looking at the book. "Lyrics?" She slid closer. "I can't read kanji, will you read them to me?" She looked at him hopefully. She wouldn't push it if he didn't want her to know but she'd take any chance she could to make a new friend.
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TAG ! Shou && Akira
OUTFIT ! look at the pic
WORDS! 354
LYRICS ! Girl In the Mirror - Britney Spears *Only guilty by thinking this template is pretty*
NOTES ! none
CREDITS ! PaulaHalliwell from caution 2.0
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 3, 2009 23:39:32 GMT -5
Oh star, fall down on me [/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] Shou looked at Mahina blankly. ”Should I hate you?” He questioned, wondering why Mahina had said such a thing. He knew that most of the patients here didn’t really build relationships with others, and he was probably classified as one of those people. He felt fear fill him up on the inside, but refused to let it show as Mahina told him it only got worse. He looked over at his twin who looked so carefree. Shou wanted to take everything that he could, he didn’t want anything to happen to his little brother. Looking down at the ground, Shou tried to think of a plan, a way to keep Akira safe from the nurses treatments. ”Does anything hurt much?” He asked softly, looking back at Mahina with worried eyes. He was not worried for himself at all, just his little twin.
”Sex… Among other things…” Shou replied, shrugging his shoulders. He chuckled slightly at Mahina’s way of looking at things. ”Well, apparently it’s wrong to have sex with your twin” He said, smirking slightly. ”Even if his body’s delicious” He nodded in Akira’s direction. ”It may not look it, but he really enjoys it and he likes it better rough” He sighed, almost wanting to go over to his twin and take him hard right there. But he resisted and stayed where he was, continuing to talk to Mahina.
He nodded as Mahina asked to hear some of his lyrics. ”I’ll read you one song” He said, opening up his book and flipping through the pages to find a good one. ”They’re in kanji so that the nurses can’t read it if they find it” He explained, finally finding a good song – the one he’d been writing earlier. ”Okay, here’s one” He said, clearing his throat. [/size] ” All on your own in the night sky
You assembled the scattered about constellations
I wonder if i become aware of them, wont they twinkle out by ones and twos ?
Once Again Today
The dream continues
I wont sleep if i look up from the bottom of this loneliness
As it is desperations has left me to wonder in the darkness
Hope cannot reach me.
The wish cannot be granted
But even then I'm still near
Somewhere this star was smashed up into stardust
Various colors
An Ideal universe ?” Stopping, he shrugged his shoulders. ”And that’s all I have so far”
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MAHINA HAUKEA
med risk
So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 4, 2009 8:58:34 GMT -5
My 5 FUCKED UP Theories-------------------------------------------MAHINA LOKELANI HAUKEA-------------------------------------------Of my FUCKED UP Reality. 1. All that seems to exist, even what seem to be thoughts, may be an illusion.
She looked at him and smiled slightly. "It really isn't too bad...some of the medicines though.....and the worst is shock therapy." She held a grip on her arms. "As long as you pretend to be good they won't bother you much." she said quietly. "Your worried about Akira aren't you? Don't worry he should be fine." She smiled gently at him and sat up straight. Looking over back and forth between the twins she sighed.
2. Only independent thoughts exist. No separate being thinks them; the thoughts just exist by themselves.
The poor things were stuck here, a high risk no less, and she wasn't sure if she could tell them much to help them. To ease their suffering. By the way things looked they might have already gotten shitty medicine and Shou said she had already been to shock therapy. "The ticks suck the most." She said as her fingers twitched. "The electricity messes with your system and screws you all up."
3. Only one thinking being and its thoughts exist. The thoughts only exist when the being is thinking them.
She was trying to feign good behavior so she could get out of there, they were upping the voltage every time she went. Not fun at all. She looked at him and smiled. "Sex with your twin is bad? why?" She laughed. It didn't seem like such a big deal to her. They were twins, it wasn't like they were being forced into it or anything.
4. Several thinking beings and their thoughts exist. The beings can interact with each other telepathically.
She listened to him and turned her attention to Akira. "I don't doubt he likes it. I mean really." She said a bit shyly. "Look at you." She smiled and laughed, raking her hair over her face as if to hide herself.
5. Real physical objects also exist, in conjunction with any of the above scenarios.
Quietly she listened as he read her the lyrics. "Wow that's beautiful. I haven't written anything in a long time and even if I did it probably wouldn't be very good. I find it hard putting things into words properly. One of my downfalls." She turned more toward him slightly to pay more attention to him.
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 4, 2009 22:35:17 GMT -5
Oh star, fall down on me [/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] Shou shuddered, remembering the medicine that he’d been given one night before bed. He’d kept his twin up all night because he couldn’t stop throwing up, and when he was finally exhausted a doctor took him to his office to examine him. They switched the medicines so that he wouldn’t be vomiting constantly, but he didn’t see how any of these pills were supposed to make him better when there was nothing wrong with him. He felt ashamed that he was so easily read by Mahina, who asked if he was worried about Akira. ”I’m terrified for him, knowing what I’m going through” He said softly, staring off at his twin, who felt eyes on him and turned to look. Akira smiled at his brother and waved before carrying on with his game. Shou gulped and looked down at the ground. ”I want it to be better for him”
”Ticks?” Shou asked, seeming confused. ”What are ticks?” He was slightly annoyed by the fact that she assumed he knew all of the lingo already. He was still learning english, who had the time to learn the language around here? He shuddered as again the shock therapy was brought up, and he tried to block out what she said. Shou only had to go through one session, just to teach him a lesson. The nurses had said that it would be more effective than putting him in solitary. Well, they’d been right about one thing at least and it pained him to admit it.
He laughed a bit and shrugged his shoulders. ”I don’t know. I enjoy it, and he enjoys it, that should be all that matters” Shou sighed, getting lost in memories now of screwing his twin. The most recent ones were in their room of this place, but he didn’t let that stop him from thinking about them. They’d been fun after all, even if they hadn’t been able to drink each other’s blood. He smirked at her sudden shyness. ”Look at me why?” He asked, pretending he didn’t know what she was talking about.
Shou listened to her feedback and smiled a bit. ”Thanks. Hopefully when I get out of here, I can be a musician” He said, closing his book and resting it on the grass beside him. He looked over at Akira, and saw that he was now curling up on the cold grass to fall asleep. Shou smiled softly, and got up to get his little brother. He came back, cradling his twin in his arms and lightly kissing his lips. He pushed Akira’s bangs out of his face as the younger curled up closer to his twin. Akira stretched out a bit, but curled up again, his body relaxing quickly and his breathing evening out.
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MAHINA HAUKEA
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So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 5, 2009 13:08:17 GMT -5
My 5 FUCKED UP Theories-------------------------------------------MAHINA LOKELANI HAUKEA-------------------------------------------Of my FUCKED UP Reality. 1. All that seems to exist, even what seem to be thoughts, may be an illusion.
she nodded and yawned. "Of course." She looked at him and clenched her hands. "Ticks are like...involuntary movements. Like how I touch my lips and my neck and tug on my ears. It's from the shock therapy. They really do suck." She sighed and closed her eyes for a moment. Memories of past shocks were popping up, very much unwanted.
2. Only independent thoughts exist. No separate being thinks them; the thoughts just exist by themselves.
Her fingers twitched repeatedly as she heard her own screams, the pleas to stop and the back of the doctor that ordered it. He didn't care. She opened her eyes suddenly, dazed. "It's horrible if you go for a long time. You can't do some of the things you could before. I can't eat more than 5 spoonfuls of things at a time or I'll throw up, I have to switch off foods constantly. I can't drink apple juice or orange juice."
3. Only one thinking being and its thoughts exist. The thoughts only exist when the being is thinking them.
It was all very odd to some people but it was the way the electricity had messed up her internal organs. She couldn't handle certain things or they'd immediately be rejected from her body, and certain things would cause her a shock. "I also can't walk barefoot on carpet anymore. Static electricity times 10." She shook her head and sighed.
4. Several thinking beings and their thoughts exist. The beings can interact with each other telepathically.
She blushed and looked down. "Well it must be obvious that you know by now your really hot." She glanced at him and flashed him a nervous smile. "Unfortunately in here there's only a few places to get screwed, and you have to depend on the right nurses and patients not to gloat or else you'll get in huge trouble. I haven't managed to get any in 3 years it's driving me insane." She groaned and lightly hit her head on the tree.
5. Real physical objects also exist, in conjunction with any of the above scenarios.
She looked at him as he went to pick up his twin and smiled. "I'm sure when you get out you'll be famous." She said quietly as not to disturb the sleeping boy. "He's so cute." She said quietly and leaned closer to get a better look at him. So peaceful, it calmed her just looking at him.
tags;; Shou && Akira
outfit;; look at the pic
words;; 361
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status;; finished
credit;; Ms. Ticking of CAUTION 2.0 remove you you die.
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Post by AKIRA & SHOU TANAKA. on Dec 5, 2009 17:44:28 GMT -5
Oh star, fall down on me [/font] Let me make a wish upon you[/i][/center] Shou bit his lip at the thought of having twitches such as these, glad now that he’d only gone to shock therapy once. He listened as he continued to describe the side effects. ”If it works so terribly, why do they still use it?” He asked softly. ”It doesn’t sound like it’s doing anybody any good” He sighed and began to wrap his blond hair around his finger, something that he did while in thought. He tried very hard not to imagine Mahina screaming in pain, wanting to keep the sounds out of his head.
As she continued, Shou stopped twirling his hair and put his hands over his ears. ”Enough, please” He said, already working hard enough to stop himself from imagining the things that she described. He wouldn’t be able to take those things happening to his twin, he would have to make sure that Akira was never taken for shock therapy.
He chuckled when Mahina called him hot. ”Well, obviously” Shou replied, showing no shame in the fact that he sounded vain. ”I’m sure if it weren’t for my looks I’d be suffering a lot worse in here” He seemed somewhat surprised that it had been three years for Mahina and smirked slightly. ”Really now, three years?” He asked. ”They’d have to take my twin away to keep me from sex for that long” He thought about that statement for a minute. ”In fact, they’d have to keep everyone away from me for me to not have sex for that long”
”Thanks” Shou said softly. ”For both of your compliments” He played with his twins hair and lightly kissed his forehead. ”Maybe when he wakes up, we can end that three year streak of yours” He smiled at Mahina, holding his twin close. ”What a way to end it, hmm? With twins no less” He lightly kissed Akira’s cheek, smiling at the innocent boy in his arms.
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MAHINA HAUKEA
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So tell me when my crying's over, you're the reason that I'm crying.
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Post by MAHINA HAUKEA on Dec 5, 2009 20:18:56 GMT -5
My 5 FUCKED UP Theories-------------------------------------------MAHINA LOKELANI HAUKEA-------------------------------------------Of my FUCKED UP Reality. 1. All that seems to exist, even what seem to be thoughts, may be an illusion.
"I'm not sure. Perhaps just to torture you so much you learn to act normal." She shrugged looking down. "I'm sorry." She whispered hearing him tell her to stop. she looked at him and felt ashamed, seeing him cover his ears like that to block her out. "I'm sorry." She said, her tone sad. "But you shouldn't worry shock therapy is a very rare thing." she smiled encouragingly.
2. Only independent thoughts exist. No separate being thinks them; the thoughts just exist by themselves.
She laughed and smiled flirtatiously as he spoke. "Well of course, you seem quite vain but it's rightly placed. I mean really, you must be proud of such a pretty face." She lost her shy demeanor for a more flirty and lustful one. She giggled lightly. "So I'm guessing by that you mean you've been with the nurses before? It seems to be one of the only real ways to survive, you et on their good side you never have to suffer here. Well, for the most part anyway."
3. Only one thinking being and its thoughts exist. The thoughts only exist when the being is thinking them.
She smiled looking at him. "Your lucky you can manage that. Everyone else here looks at me like I'm a freak and won't go 4 steps close to me. They treat me like I'm an outcast, even the patients." She'd gotten used to it by now. It didn't matter much to her any longer.
4. Several thinking beings and their thoughts exist. The beings can interact with each other telepathically.
She stared at him a moment. "You'd actually have sex with me?" It was a genuine question. The images that ran through her mind just thinking of it made her grip the edge of her shirt in pleasure. "Not surprisingly that sounds absolutely amazing." She said nearly breathless. To end a 3 years streak with no sex to twins? The thought had her nearly panting. She looked down at the sleeping boy and tried to control all her thoughts.
5. Real physical objects also exist, in conjunction with any of the above scenarios.
"To think someone that looks so innocent would be capable of doing such naughty things." She said half to herself. She glanced up at Shou and grinned. "You must enjoy him a lot."
tags;; Shou && Akira
outfit;; look at the pic
words;; 336
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status;; finished
credit;; Ms. Ticking of CAUTION 2.0 remove you you die.
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